Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Week 18 #BabyWilliams2

So I have been horrible at updating my pregnancy here - Which you would think I would be just as good or not better then last time around because now I am actually updating people because all our family and friends live so far away from us. But life is different then it was when I was going around this merry go round last time. Now I have a toddler to wrangle and keeping up a full time work load.

So I am 18 weeks along. Crazy to think we are almost half way though this adventure. It's been a very different pregnancy then the last one. I had MAJOR food aversion that still comes and goes from time to time. I lost all the weight I had initially gained and as of today I am a pound over my pre-pregnancy weight.

We also found out on July 9th that we are having another boy with a 3d ultrasound!

How far along? 18 weeks
Total weight gain: 1 pound
Maternity clothes? Nope
Stretch marks? no
Sleep: I sleep anyway I can - with co-sleeping I have to work around a little 15 month old.
Best moment last week: I started feeling kicks here and there.

Miss Anything? My appetite.
Movement: A little but not too much.. 
Food cravings: Nope - I wish.
Anything making you queasy or sick: The thought of food period has a tendency to make my stomach turn.

Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: Exhaustion.
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy!
Looking forward to: Finalizing a name!

Saturday, May 3, 2014

BabyWilliams#2 - Week 7

Week 7 is near a close and what a stressful week. Between my complete lack of an appetite and allergies kicking my butt we've definitely had our challenges.

It's a whole different ballgame being pregnant with a toddler then it was when you haven't created a spawn yet. When you are pregnant with your first your constantly told to take it easy, relax, pamper yourself, take nap, and so on. But when your pregnant with number 2 with a little one nipping at your heels and pulling up on your pant legs you are just a worn out momma with another on the way. You try and take cat naps when your little one is down for a nap but only long enough for a second wind since you have to start laundry and do work while he finishes his nap.

My exhaustion this time around is on a different level then it was with my first pregnancy however my endurance is much better. Raiden is having to learn that momma's tummy is not a catapult anymore. I'm not really showing really but I can't suck in my stomach. I was warned that you can start showing much earlier then you did with your first and I am thinking that is going to ring very true for me.

I am still bracing myself with the idea of having 2 babies under the age of 2. Luckily our little guy gets more and more independent by the day. He still isn't walking but I don't see that being too far off. He has become a great little eater and enjoys a MDO program once a week. I am assuming we will move up his MDO outtings to 3 times a week when #BabyWilliams2 makes it's grand entrance into the world so I can still maintain my sanity and workload.

I can't suck it in anymore.
How far along? 7 weeks!
Total weight gain: 0 pounds.
Maternity clothes? Nope but I have started my maternity buying at Buckle for this summer and fall.
Stretch marks? no
Sleep: I do have to get up at least once a night to use the little girl's room
Best moment last week: Met our OB

Miss Anything? Laying on my stomach.
Movement: Nope.
Food cravings: More like no cravings. The thought of food pretty much disgusts me.
Anything making you queasy or sick: No.
Gender: Want to bet?

Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: Having the bladder of a hummingbird.
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on

Happy or Moody most of the time: Motivated
Looking forward to: Ultrasound in 2 weeks!!

Tuesday, April 22, 2014


You read right. #BabyWilliams2

On Wednesday, April 16 - just a couple weeks after our son Raiden's first birthday party - We found out that we are expecting a baby. I was about 10 days late, but I am still nursing so I didn't think too much of it. But I took 2 dollar store tests and both came up with barely there lines. This time I didn't record Mr. W's reaction, but I did get the type of response I expected the first time around that I didn't get! I figured if I set something up he would suspect something, so when he walked into the door from work I asked him how his day was and he replied it was a great day and asked how mine was and I just said "Well, I'm pregnant." His mouth dropped and he repeated what I just said and hugged and kissed me. I feel a odd sense of satisfaction that I actually caught him off guard this time around.

The next day I bought a package of EPT tests, I know it's silly but the dollar store tests were so hard to make out. The EPT tests both immediately came up with big fat plus signs.

I have my first prenatal appointment next week and the first ultrasound 2 weeks later. It is so surreal to be going through these motions again, and although surprised and caught off guard, we are so excited about having another baby! We are guesstimating that I am about 6 weeks currently, it is hard to pin point since I am nursing and my cycle is a little jinky.

The shock is starting to subside a bit that we are pregnant with another baby. It is very different going through the first trimester exhaustion when you are running after a 1 year old all day. I nap when I can, which is usually when my little guy naps.

I know that a lot of people tell me they don't get as excited about things with the second pregnancy as the first, that they forget the baby bump pictures, they forget to note when they felt their first kick or heard the heart beat and I am determined not to be that way. So I fully plan on blogging this pregnancy just as I did with our last. I love having this record of the ups and downs of a pregnancy. I am also thinking, if I can get Mr. W to go along with it, we might wait to find out if it is a boy or girl till delivery. Can I hold out that long? I don't know. Maybe? Doubtful. But maybe.

I am also in the process of growing out my pixie. So I might just document that as well so stick that up your pipe and smoke it!

2 months of growing out the hair.

6 weeks - I call it "Bloat Bump"

How far along are you? 6 weeks (could change pending ultrasound)
Total weight gain? 0
Maternity Clothes? Fully intend on going the Buckle route again
Stretch Marks? Just the ones that are fading from the first baby!
Sleep: I am SO tired all the time right now.
Best Moment Last Week? Finding out we were pregnant
Movement: n/a
Food Craving: Texas Mexican food!
Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope.
Labor signs? n/a
Symptoms? exhaustion mainly, and tata sensitivity - nursing hurts SO much right now!
Belly button in or out? innie.
Wedding Ring on or off? On.
Most common emotion? Excitement
Looking forward to? Our prenat appointment next week!

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Made from scratch with love.

What I am saying probably doesn't come to a shock to anyone, it is probably rather cliche actually. But I can't explain how deeply I feel it.

Becoming a mother has changed who I am immensely. I don't even know if immensely is the right word. Radically. I can feel it in my bones. Nothing is the same, everything has changed. The love I feel for my son and husband overflows. And it has put in to prospective my whole existence and everything I have pretty much ever done. How foolish I was when I was younger and what I valued as important. The little dramas I use to fill my life with, the time I invested into things and people. I really was such a silly girl, I was grown and all but I don't think I was quite yet a woman and I know that sounds funny but I really believe it to be true.

I can't say I am one of those that became a mother the second I found I was pregnant. The idea of becoming a parents was kind of terrifying to me and it took some getting use to, he was just an idea up to the time of his birth. Even as my belly grew and I could feel him - It took him being placed in my arms for everything to click. I was responsible for the tiny human being. I didn't know what to do at first, even holding him, he was just so tiny and felt so fragile. When we left the hospital initially he started choking the second we came home and I freaked out. That was followed by a trip back to the hospital for jaundice that very week and then we had a few weeks of getting into a routine before we were rattled again by the emergency surgery on his tummy. There are no words for the feelings we were having during that time. It was gut wrenching to see our little boy in pain and in trouble like he was... having to agree for this little infant to be put under and cut into in the first few weeks of life. However, it saved his life and it was a swift kick into the nitty gritty of parenthood.

Over the last several months we've learned as we've went along. He is growing so dang fast, part of me is sad to see his independence increasing but at the same time it is so exciting to see him learn and adapt. From rolling over, sitting up on his own, entertaining himself... His first tooth started coming in yesterday. I just stare in awe something. I made him from scratch.

The birth of my son was also the springboard back towards my faith, something I have from lingering away from for quite sometime. There is nothing like bringing life into this world that solidifies your faith. From finding out you are pregnant, to hearing the heartbeat for the first time, to feeling those kicks and the squirming in your belly, to having your child, the little being you made from scratch, being put into your arms. It is awe inspiring and so significant. My emotions and feelings are so much more immense and deep, I wish I had to words to translate how I feel these days. Everyday with my son is a gift and a blessing that I can't even begin to describe, Watching him grow and learn - I am SO blessed to be at home with him to be able to witness this on a day to day basis.

Getting married and having a family has shown me this whole new side of life and I am overjoyed that I am fortunate enough to experience it all. I can't help but laugh at the immaturity and things that I use to think matter. All the drama, people and insignificant things that use to fill my life that I earnestly thought mattered. In the broad scheme of things none of it did, none of them did. It was just lessons in life and really nothing more. Funny how all that happens, how quickly things that mattered so much in retrospect doesn't matter at all and truly never did.

All that really matters is this...

The aftermath

It has been 257 days since we welcomed our sweet little boy into this world. 257 since delivering a 8 pound 13 ounce bundle of joy.

257 days since I looked like this

And I was sporting a large and in charge bump

I topped out at 235 pounds when I was pregnant, and that was with eating as healthy as I could and walking, now I wish I had continued to do mild weight training and elliptical but shoulda, coulda, woulda right? I lost 47 pounds within 2 weeks of having RJ but still had a ways to go to get back to my before pregnancy weight. I am now 180 pounds, which is my pre pregnancy weight and was my first target weight - yet my body looks nothing like it once did. My stomach is different, my hips wider, my stretch marks... ugh... don't get me started there. Luckily they have faded significantly but they are still there... but I don't know what I was expecting with a almost 9 pound baby - escaping stretch marks would have been difficult for anyone with a baby that size. I want to lose an additional 15 pounds, and after this initial 20 I have lost I am confident I can do it without the use of gimmicks and fads.  I was posting postpartum pictures for a couple months after labor and delivery but haven't in several months. So without delay here is the ooey gooey unedited goodness that is the baby bump without the baby.

I am starting a squats and kettle bell which will hopefully help to tone up a bit more. Honestly I I am not super concerned with toning, probably because just when I get to my ideal toning there is a chance we will be working on baby #2 and I will be resetting right back to where I started. So I am mainly focusing on weight loss and what the scale says which I never did in the past. My goal weight is 155 - 165, which will hopefully keep me out of the 200s next go around when we decide to have another baby.

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Gym Class Hero QUICK update 10/5/13

Starting Weight: 199
Current Weight: 185.6 
Progress: 13.4lb down
Current Goal: 180
5.6 pounds to go

My progress has slowed down but at least I am still making progress so I won't complain too much. I am not using the weight watchers app as closely as I should. I need to get back to using it more closely because I am sure that will increase my weight loss faster then going at it as I am now. My fast food intake is pretty much nonexistent these days and I am eating a lot less fried foods. I have maybe one regular type soda (decaf of course) maybe once ever 2 or 3 weeks but other then that the Mr and I have been trying to find safer and healthier alternatives to big chain soda in all of it's high fructose corn syrup goodness. We've cut our high fructose corn syrup intake in half already which is a great start but I am eager to eliminate even more from our diet.

For a soda alternative we totally love the brand Sprecher, which has several different types of soda. They use kola extract, honey, vanilla, and cinnamon to make a MUCH healthy alternative to the major brand soda companies and it tastes SO MUCH BETTER! I highly highly HIGHLY recommend it.

We also have tries the brand Zevia which is also caffeine free and is sweetened with stevia. I don't like it as much as Sprecher, but they do make a great lemon lime that tastes just like Sprite.

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Gym Class Hero. Update. 9/16/13

I haven't been as persistent as I would like maintaining this blog with my progress in my weight loss. And this post itself will be pretty short because I've been working this evening after a long day and I am beyond ready for bed. Juggling my many hats has me exhausted. So without further ado...

Starting Weight: 199
Current Weight: 187.2 
Progress: 11.8lb down
Current Goal: 180
7.2 pounds to go